I started to deepen my spiritual path seven years ago and admittedly still feelings that the bottom of the bottom just fell out prevail. Now here is the paradox [and if you've done your spiritual work you will definitely get this]. "When we’ve been on a path of self-discovery and self-improvement for a few years and haven’t seen the results we expected or were promised, it can be extremely frustrating! But that frustration—and the expectation of another negative outcome—is exactly what can keep us stuck." Thus the mantra begins "Nothing Ever Works For Me" and so it is.
Our challenge now is to clear these negative expectations. The method of clearing [chemical free] is irrelevant as long as the mantra of "Nothing Ever Works For Me" is not interrupted. Now when I am in the middle of this deep sulk I do not wish to reflect on times of tremendous success or things working well for me. I want to feel rejected, hopeless, disconnected and abandoned. Now I know you're thinking who wants to feel that junk? You do and I do each time we fall out of gratitude and make a conscious effort to think thoughts separate from God. So today I choose to parlay over the aspects of my life that work for me not leaving any room to activate the mantra that "Nothing Ever Works For Me" because everything does.